Drowned Beauty

Full of misery and woe...

2004-08-25T00:51:35Z

Wont you light my lonely way back home?

Love the lovely waifs...

2004-08-25T00:21:45Z

I leave you to revel in all your youthful yearnings
I know you like to visit them from time to time.
And like a theif, I steal the words you write to her
I take them to my heart and wish them to be mine

But this is nothing new...

more certain things...

2004-08-25T00:19:24Z

To continue on the 'certain people' train this is directed at a different certain person as I couldnt really be bothered with the forementioned certain person anymore because she really pisses me off. But now...to the OTHER certain 'guitar monkey' person who called me a 'livejournal neo-maxi-zoom-dweebie!' you dont have to fuck off because i like you a whole lot more then a certain 'craxy-dance neo-maxi-zoom-dweebie' that i know. hahaha. You both know who you are~~!! :) he!

Im all at sea...

2004-08-22T23:30:26Z

Sometimes I need a lighthouse for my own
It gets so dark, I cant see which way Im going...

~The Waifs

I hope this certain person knows who they are...!!

2004-08-19T06:09:31Z

oh and to certain people who miss certain people's certain gigs because they have certain other more fun places to be even though certain people promised to attend certain gigs...fuck off. and stop sending me msg's. also stop flirting your ass off with me Im sick of it. You're a big girl now, go find yourself a vice! Also, next time we are conveniently drunk together could you please not have your hands all over my thighs, i find it very distracting and I while you could say I am in love with you, I really dont like you all that much. so stop with the whole thing. go experiment on your fucking boyfriend. ok. Now I really am done.

On the upside...

2004-08-19T06:03:52Z

I havn't written for so long. weird hey? But I have suddenly decided that live journals are a pretty fucked up concept and who the hell am I really writing to anyway? Myself? You? Who the hell are you?

ok. Im done.

Work sucks. uni sucks. Im gonna pack up my shit and drag my ass away from this shitty little town. I will miss my housemates, I'll miss my friends, I'll miss my piano...but thats about it.

I have decided that I am going to tour the country Waifs style and nobody better stop me. See you all when I am famous...or a dried up, heroin addict, alcaholic ex-musician on crack. I like crack coke :)

dont you hate it when somebody writes a song you could have written?

2004-06-21T08:19:14Z

sick of me
-by ani DiFranco

how sick of me
must you be
by now
while you're standing just outside
of what your pride will allow
always reaching into yourself
to find a new way to understand me
when i'm sure that there's no one else
in the world
who could withstand me

the first person in your life
to ever really matter
is saying the last thing
that you want to hear
and you are listening hard
through the splintering shards
of your life as it shatters
and you're standing firm
and you're staying close
and you're seeing clear

i took to the stage
with my outrage
in the bad old days
when you were the make-me-mad guy
but the songs
they come out more slowly
now that i am the bad guy
and i say, i'm sorry i'm so crazy
I am astounded by your patience
and you say, believe it or not, baby
the joy you bring me
still outweighs it

the first person in your life
to ever really matter
is saying the last thing
that you want to hear
and you are listening hard
through the splintering shards
of your life as it shatters

and you're standing firm
and you're staying close
and you're seeing clear

how sick of me
must you be
by now?

Lady Lazarus

2004-05-27T01:50:40Z

Dying
Is an art, like everything else.
I do it exceptionally well.

I do it so it feels like hell.
I do it so it feels real.
I guess you could say I've a call.

~Sylvia Plath.

cannonball

2004-05-06T01:33:10Z

there’s still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
there’s still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
it’s still a little hard to say what's going on

there’s still a little bit of your ghost your witness
there’s still a little bit of your face i haven't kissed
you step a little closer each day
that i can’t say what's going on

stones taught me to fly
love taught me to lie
life, it taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannonball

there’s still a little bit of your song in my ear
there’s still a little bit of your words i long to hear
you step a little closer to me
so close that i can't see what's going on

stones taught me to fly
love, it taught me to lie
life taught me to die
so it's not hard to fall
when you float like a cannon..
stones taught me to fly
love taught me to cry
so come on courage
teach me to be shy
'cause it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna scare her
it's not hard to fall
and i don't wanna lose
it's not hard to grow
when you know that you just don't know

Taste.

2004-05-06T01:28:12Z

If we dont stand up for love we fall for everything else.

thats all.

Moving out of my house...

2004-04-17T06:34:48Z

Moving out of my house tomorrow...everyone come and see me in Dickson!! Hoorah! :)

Come leaders, come you men of great... Throw us a bone but save the plate.

2004-04-12T07:48:47Z

War is not the answer and sheryl crow knows it...hoorah! :)

Redemption Day.

2004-04-12T07:24:50Z

Noticing a terriable trend of lyric-posting in my journal....but i will do something about it another day. ha.

'It dont hurt, like it did
it hurts worse, who do i kid?'

Sheryl Crow is a god. thats all.

I think a change would do you good...

2004-04-11T02:18:25Z

God's little gift is on the rag
poster girl posing in a fashion mag
canine, feline, jeckyl and hide?
wear your fake fur on the inside.

Thought you were singing your heart out to me?
your lips were syncing and now I see...

Its hard to make a stand....

2004-04-10T04:03:10Z

SHERYL CROW: C'MON AMWERICA IS 20 BUCKS AT SANITY, EVERYONE GO OUT AND BUY IT!

Every fucked up minute....

2004-04-04T03:37:56Z

I know you hate me, I see that now
If I was unhappy I’d be someone you could still care about
I think it’s stupid and sad that everything turned out so bad
And enemies make the most interesting friends

I’m gonna write you a long letter
I’m gonna get you on a telephone
Three little words to make it all better
Maybe I’ll leave this whole thing alone

It’s a sad sad world without you in it
And I’m a bad bad girl for letting you down
And I remember every crazy minute
Oh, it’s a sad sad world with out you around

We're to much alike for our own good
We both hate fighting no matter how misunderstood
But I wanna tell you that you’re stubborn
I wanna tell you I never lied
And I wanna tell you that your friends talk way too much
And I wanna know what happened to that friend of mine

It’s a sad sad world without you in it
And I was a bad bad girl for letting you down
And I remember every crazy minute
Oh, It’s a sad sad world without you around

Oh, It’s a sad sad world without you in it
And I’m a bad bad girl for letting you down
I remember every fucked up minute
Oh, It’s a sad sad world without you around

Death to supre valley girls.

2004-03-29T02:01:09Z

Time to write an entry. A real honest-to-god no fucking around entry. ha.

Firstly a big shout out to jenny and all the fun we will have on monday in 2 weeks at the folk festival!! :)

Secondly, to everyone who i havnt really spoken to in like...ages...im sorry. You know who you are.

To everyone else, Im moving out of my house so Im really not giving a fuck about anything else at the moment. ;)

"Hold on you gotta wait just a minute
See the cookie jar? Got my hand caught in it
Just let me try to explain...."

Seriously tho, must get to actually writing something, anything, down on paper. Must have something fanbloodytastic to show Beau. Sudden need to impress him. Is weird. Maybe is because he is going to let me play him obscure sheryl crow songs :) Need to meet his gal Kate too. Have strange feeling will like her v. much.

Im sure there was something else I needed to say but i cant really remember....okay jenny! ha!

Im going to get some bread....for toast. :)

Bought to you by the letter E....hoorah!

2004-03-26T08:33:25Z

Do you know what i hate? stupid pre-pubescent supre valley girls that giggle constantly and get drunk every night on UC ressies. grrr to all of them because they keep me up all night.

but soon I will not have to worry about them and their stoopid 'random quotes' board.

'gee i hope i get the dyke' -kat.

WHAT THE FUCK???!!??

hoorah for mel and nicky and moving the fuck out of my house :)

John Mayer.

2004-03-05T23:14:03Z

hoorah for mini breaks and mardi gras!!

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
She's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change

Coast trips.....

2004-02-13T05:12:04Z

yey coast....see you later loosers!!! ahhhh. *evil grin*

drowned_beauty @ 2004-02-12T20:52:00

2004-02-12T09:56:12Z

I am suddenly inspired, by everything. By Tv and music and fucking everything all of a sudden. Its weird....

drowned_beauty @ 2004-02-10T21:43:00

2004-02-10T10:43:55Z

I think it perfectly clear, IM in the wrong band...

Take these broken wings....

2004-02-08T22:30:28Z

I wish I could write a song....my mind is empty.

If I was to show you
I need a gun
As far as you see it
I'm already done for

I've got my finger on the trigger...

2004-02-08T01:06:11Z

"I'm hoping to catch me an eyeful,
of your love and you doing porn"

Dana...

2004-02-06T01:14:03Z

Dana rocks my world....

X-posted.